I am writing a blog after months and it feels awkward to see the changes WordPress went through. I would say it’s coincidental that my life also witnessed a couple of changes in the past month. We watch different social media content about friendships, matrimony, and relationships. We laugh hard at some of them and relate to some with teary eyes. Last week, one of my closest friends got married. My heart held mixed emotions, well I was happy and sad at that exact moment. I was elated to witness his wedding at a destination where I couldn’t imagine myself in the winter. I made it to his wedding in bone and flesh; I wasn’t self-centered for once. I couldn’t hold my tears when I saw the couple on the stage on their D-day. Now, I know the feeling of shedding happy tears for someone you care and love beyond your life. I am glad that I couldn’t give a toast at my friend’s wedding. If I did, I would have cried my lungs out and it wouldn’t be a good show.
It’s been a week since I returned from the wedding and I feel lost. It always rings in my head that, we have to make space for new relationships in life. It won’t be the same again when we go out for dinner now. I can no longer engage in friendly banter with my friend, his pride is someone else’s now. I cannot be myself with him again, his space is shared space now. I cannot have the same meals together, his plate is shared now. I cannot pen long posts now. He might be special to me, but there is a relationship beyond our friendship. We are officially welcoming a new member into our lives with his wedding.
One fine day, when I grow old in an old-age home, I will still remember that I fought with him because I missed him. I will still remember our first meeting, it might be hazy. I will still remember that he remains one of the male members of my life, who I respect a lot. I will still remember, how we embraced each other’s flaws. Even though, I thought I would be the first one to leave the group… here we are witnessing the wedding of the most eligible bachelor. I think I have seen enough in life now, seeing you smile the widest is one of my happiest memory from this year. I am glad you found your lobster, Yogesh. For the next 50 years that we live, I will behave myself. I promise. I will miss my friend very much though on another note.